It's a new year y'all! 2018 started with a bang for me and ended with an explosion. It was likely the biggest year of my entire life!
It wasn't full of good. Wasn't full of bad... fair share of both I suppose.
Going into 2019 though, I have decided that more than ever, I want to be authentic and present. I want to soak up the days with my new baby and my big kids. I want to be out in nature and craft more. Read my Bible more. I hope to take more field trips with the kids and connect with other moms. Maybe I'll finish my book. I'm striving to eat better and get intentional exercise at least 3 days a week. I want to make each day count.
The truth is though, thinking about all that wonderful stuff gets me really overwhelmed and even little depressed... Why? Because life just doesn't flow that smooth when you are a fickle woman with 5 kids that never has it together.
Let's just be real...
It's not my year to shine...
This is my year to adapt and continue to evolve. I'm not setting any big goals because that would be asking for failure. If I have learned anything in my 32 years of life, it's that my life is unpredictable...because I'm unpredictable. At least I am starting to get to know myself better and adjust accordingly!
I have 5 kids, a house to clean, food to cook, homeschool (which I'm majorly failing at lately), running around here, there and freaking everywhere...I'm trying to have a relationship with Jesus, to spend time with my husband once in a while, and to not forget anything at the grocery store.
There isn't a ton of time, energy or room in my day for crafting, hikes in the wilderness, field trips or intentional exercise. 😏
So instead of making a bunch of "goals," I'll just do it like I always do and wing it...but this year with a little more intention to just enjoy life.To choose that hike over the laundry. To get out of town every chance I get. Choose water instead of wine. Silence over wrath.. to invest in those who invest in me... being who I want to be today, instead of who I think I should be tomorrow. This year, I hope more than anything else, to just be happy. To start each day new...letting go of yesterday
There are so many phases and changes and so much responsibility-- sometimes-- I'm not sure how I landed here, in 2019, 32 years young, with 5 kids...still the same girl, full of so many hopes and dreams.
Life goes by fast. So fast... it's hard to soak it up because it's always coming at you.
But cheers to 2019, to me, and to you, to navigating new struggles, to learning to adapt and let go...so we can grow.
Here is to the contradiction of life. Drink Up. 🍷🍷
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