Jesus knows

I woke up early today.  My eyes shot open at 5:23 on the dot. I couldn't go back to sleep...so I just got up.

I've been tired lately...feeling in a bit of a funk.

Not for any specific reason, but sometimes, life is just tiring.

Sometiems, I don't know what I need or why I feel like I do, but Jesus knows.

He  knew I needed to work some stuff out. He knows that I sit down to read my Bible and get easily distracted. That I constantly start prayers that I never finish.  He knows that lately, I've taken time for a lot of things... but not really for Him.

So he woke me up early today.

I need Jesus.  Not because He said I did, although He's right.  Not even so I don't go to hell. 

But because... He knows.  He knows my heart and all my fears. My shortcomings and struggles.  He knows the darkness that can creep up inside me.  And He knows how to fix it all.

He is the great physician.

In Mark 2, verse 15, the Bible says
And it came to pass, that, as Jesus sat at meat in his house, many publicans and sinners sat also together with Jesus and his disciples: for there were many, and they followed him.
16  And when the scribes and Pharisees saw him eat with publicans and sinners, they said unto his disciples, How is it that he eateth and drinketh with sinners?
17  When Jesus heard it, he saith unto them,
They that are whole have no need of the physician, but they that are sick: I came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.

That last verse, I needed that.  I needed it today, and Jesus knew.

I prayed for a while this morning and before I finished, I asked God to show me what he'd have me to read.

I do it all the time, and He shows me.

Prayer, repentance, and studying God's word are for the sinner.

Sometimes, I think about how Jesus is hearing a world's prayers...in all different languages, from all different places.  I know many of the cries He hears,  are much more important than mine.
But somehow, He hears more than just static.

Jesus hears me.

He hears us all.

He knows.

I mess up a lot.  I don't give what I should to Jesus, to God.  And there is no good excuse.  But I'm the sick.
I am not the righteous.  I'm a sinner.

Yet he still associates with me. He fellowships with me.
He loves me.  I am still His child.  He still hears my prayers. 

He works stuff out for me, even when I don't put the effort in that I should. 

Salvation is the greatest gift I have ever received.

God has a purpose for us all. 

Lately, I think he's been knocking at my door, putting people and happenings in my path, trying my heart, whispering ever-so-softly, but I hesitate to answer. 

Because I'm a sinner.  Because of what I don't want to give up. 
Because of what I have to lose to gain.
Because of what it will take from me to do His will.

Today, Jesus woke me up early, and called me in for repentance. 

To say I'm sorry for running away, and it isn't helping.
To say I need help....again.
To say I don't have it all figured out, and without Him, I never will.

Just a little prayer and some time in God's word, and I feel highly favored by him this morning. 

Safe. Strong. and loved. 

Talk to Jesus today.

Just a little talk with Jesus

I was once lost in sin but Jesus took me in
And then a little light from Heaven filled my soul
It bathed my heart in love and it wrote my name above
And just a little talk with Jesus made me whole

Have a little talk with Jesus
Tell him all about your troubles
He will hear your fainted cry
He will answer by and by
Feel a little prayer wheel turning
Know a little fire is burning
Find a little talk with Jesus makes it right.

Blessings
-L