Ramblings of a Revolutionary

I feel serious guilt, serious inadequacy in being a 21st century mom.  Not because I'm not a good one, I am.  I know I am.  But because being a "good parent"  isn't about loving your kids and providing for them anymore.  It isn't about guiding them or making sure they know Jesus. Being a modern mom is all about submersing yourself into your child's life as if you're the friggin' child yourself.  You solve all their disputes, you complete their projects for them.  You do do do do do everything for them and feel the pressure to get them what the other kids have...   without knowing it, you vamp up their expectations of the world and what it should do and be for them.  Unintentionally, you are robbing them of being a kid, of problem solving, of setting themselves apart from others. They ask, we give in and if we don't....well then, you're a weirdo. Old fashioned. Some people might even consider it depriving your child. I'm calling bs....

I've had my blog up for nearly 2 years now... I don't post to it regularly, but all that's about to change.  I have countless blogs, saved as drafts.  I don't publish them because they're taboo topics...I don't get totally real with my audience, and let people in on who really am.  Mostly because I have four kids that are my whole world and I don't want to be judged as a mother. But that's not all I am.  If you are a perfect mom or person, who has never made a bad choice, who does things by the book, that doesn't have a sketchy past, then that's great.  I'm happy for you.  As for me though, I'm a mess.  I'm all over the place. I screw up all the time, but I strive hard. I fall hard, but I always get back up and most of the time, I try harder. Other times, I stay stuck for a while, until something snaps me out of it.  I'm not everyone's cup of tea, but I've been tr...