Tree.... falling on us... just like life. #EmbraceTheChaos While I was driving home yesterday, I was praying in my head...thanking God for my blessings, and praying for strength--and I realized, that I am happy. Truly happy. Although happiness is fleeting for me lately...it's more real than ever. Do you know what I mean? For years, I was only happy on the surface. I would tell myself I was happy, and I'm a positive person, but I didn't feel it deep down. I felt stuck, trapped . Like I was moving forward, putting one foot in front of the other, but nothing ever changed. I was going nowhere. Now, my life has dramatically changed in the course of three months. It isn't a lot of people's version of "normal." It's not what my normal used to be either...but I've never been one to fit in a box. There are days when I'm sad. When I feel like a failure. When I lock myself in the bathroom and cry. But there are also days when I'm ...
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