Ramblings of a Revolutionary

A few nights ago, my pantry was almost bare and I had a lot of unused produce from the garden.  I didn't feel like going shopping, and I didn't want something average either... so I decided to just see what I could make out of what I had on hand, and came up with   "Squash and Pepper Soup!"  It's easy to make, and very versatile, you could put anything in it really.  The whole family loved it. The cool thing about this recipe, is that it was a wonderful summer soup, but would also be great in the winter months too. You could sub some cabbage in place of the squash!  I think next time, I might try chicken and rice in the soup, instead of ground beef. I served it with crushed tortilla chips and sour cream.  Here's my version, have fun creating your own! Squash & Pepper Soup Ingredients: 1 lb of Ground Beef  2 Green Bell Peppers 1 Orange Bell Pepper 1 Yellow Bell Pepper 1/2 Serrano Pepper 8 Green Onion Stalks 1 Lar...

Some nights, I sob myself to sleep... Many evenings, I say I'm going to take a shower, just so I can break down and ugly cry where no one will hear me. There are times when I feel such a heaviness in my heart...because I'm not the kind of mother I thought I would be. I make crap choices and set a terrible example sometimes. I lose it in front of them. I show my ass. I get upset when my almost 4 year old doesn't flush, and wipes her butt on the toilet seat. She knows better. I get sad...and sometimes I check out. I get overwhelmed and struggle to meet my own expectations of myself. I get tired. I get used. I get mad. Nothing prepares you to be a mom. The love you feel blinds you. Raw, maddening love...impairs you. It is your driving force while also being the source of your anger and frustration... the love a mother feels for her children, is consuming. It is devastating. The worry that comes with the love will depress you. It will eat at you, and feed off...