Ramblings of a Revolutionary

I read and hear this all the time... "Pinterest worthy?" Have you heard it?  What comes to mind when you phrase those two words?  That you aren't!  Ha!  Not a stab....just sayin'.  I know I sure-as-heck ain't pinterest worthy.  I'll tell you what though...my house and life totally resemble the whole grand idea of Pinterest!  Really!  What simple geniuses were they (who is they anyway? ) when coming up with the great scheme of a pinning world.  Seriously.  Everything you were ever interested in doing, tasting, seeing, learning, or experiencing is on pinterest!  And all you have to do is name a little bulletin board....and pin to it!  You can pin on for days!  Believe me, I have before!  Kinda like the kicks I get on in life sometimes...when I'm like wonderwoman...superchick....awesome mom..... wonderfulwife.  I can do it all and have it all together... i'll be like conquering the world...

Dear Daughter, I've been meaning to write you this letter for quite some time.  I just hadn't really been pushed to do it until now.  As we both know, life has been crazy.  Throwing us curves left and right.  I veered off the path on several of them....and you and your sisters and brother paid the price for it and I'm sorry for that.  I have screwed up a lot.  Made some bad choices.  I'm not always "available" or present like I should be.  I'm here, I'm just not here...it's a mom thing, you'll understand some day.  There are things I want to say to you, but I don't know how to get them out.  And some of them are things you wouldn't quite be able to wrap your head around yet anyways. I guess I'll just start like this: I'm still growing up.  I'm still experiencing all my firsts as a mom with you--My oldest, beautiful daughter.... my little guinea pig.  I'm still learning.  It's scary sometimes--well, who am I...